It’s been awhile since there’s been a new post here on Whole Intentions. But there’s a story here. . .
Early this spring I decided I needed a break for the summer. We had a family vacation to plan, family coming for an extended visit, and a ton of mini projects I’d started that either needed finished or
I gave our wonderful contributing authors the summer off too, and arranged to attack it with focused intensity as soon as our school year ended.
Ah, yes. How amusing it must be to God that we make such strategic plans. . .because a couple weeks before school ended, I discovered two pink lines on a pregnancy test.
While this might be a small bump (no pun intended) for some, it was more like a roller coaster of emotions for me.
Our choice over the years has been that neither of us have surgery to completely prevent a pregnancy (and were willing to accept the possible outcome), however we weren’t ‘trying’ to become pregnant either. This was fine for several years because I truly felt content with our five blessings. . .but then ‘baby fever’ hit.
By the time our youngest was about four, I yearned for another baby. I’d see babies and my arms would ache. I’d hear babies cry and wanted to cuddle them. But while I could see my biological clock ticking, Travis felt the responsibility to provide for the children we had.
We never argued about it, but many late night talks ended with us both totally understanding where the other was coming from, yet feeling discouraged we weren’t on the same page – something that rarely happens. Travis hated the fact that I wanted something so badly he didn’t feel he could totally agree with, and I hated the fact that I couldn’t just let it go.
So I did what I knew I needed to. I prayed. . .and prayed. . .and prayed. . .for God to make the desire go away if having another baby wasn’t in His plans for us. . .that I would appreciate the fact that our children could dress themselves 🙂 . . .and that I would be submissive to Travis’s decision and not let the desire for a new baby become an issue between us.
This was not an easy battle for me. I struggled with it for over a year.
But gradually God changed my heart and I found myself happily embracing a new phase of parenting. I had finally, finally come to terms with the fact that we would probably not have more babies.
Yep. I told you how amusing God must find it that we continually ‘think’ we have life figured out. Need I tell you how those two pink lines were NOT what I expected to see. 🙂
Travis was just as surprised and happy as I was. Although he didn’t think we should try for more, he was never opposed to God blessing us with a tiny bundle since only He knows how much we can handle. Because after all, God has shown us time and time again that His plans are perfect.
Morning sickness mayhem
In the midst of our surprise, came the expected, albeit dreaded, morning sickness that’s plagued each of my pregnancies. Needless to say, many of my mini summer projects have either returned to the shelf or permanently disappeared!
Since it’s been nearly six years since my last pregnancy, and our diets and thoughts on food and health has changed drastically, I decided to spend some time (before morning sickness hit) to look into the cause of morning sickness deeper.
I’m so excited to share with you all I’ve learned and how, at 3.5 months along, the morning sickness that usually sticks with me for nearly seven months is almost non-existent. Watch for that article soon!