I Haven’t Been Totally Honest With You

I try not to fill my posts with me, me, me stuff. I’m sure the everyday things that happen in my life aren’t as interesting to you as they are to me. Unless of course you live vicariously through the blogs you read: laughing with them, crying with them, and eating up the fact that you aren’t the only whole food, homeschooling weirdo out there. But maybe that’s just me. 🙂

You’ve all become such sweet friends, and there are some major changes going on for us, that I felt I needed to confess something. . .I haven’t been totally honest with you.

I mean, I haven’t outright lied. . .but I’ve kinda avoided telling you the whole truth: my husband works for the enemy. 

The Truth of the Matter

LOL. I make it sound like he’s a spy or something! Okay, before you go calling the FBI, let me explain:

I might have mentioned over the past year or so that Travis works in research, but I neglected to tell you what he researches. Corn. As in corn development. As in he works for seed corn companies.

In case the light hasn’t dawned yet, let me put it to you this way. One of the ugliest words to us real foodies, WAPF followers, and traditional foodists, etc. is the name MONSANTO – the GMO-creating, population-controlling, arch enemy of real, nourishing food, safe & healthy living, basic decency and integrity. . . you get the picture.

Travis doesn’t work for Monsanto, but for all practical purposes he could be. For the last fifteen years he’s worked for seed companies like Monsanto (just without the horns and tail). Companies that develop different corn hybrids. . . and yes, GMO’s.


At one point in life I had no idea what GMO’s were. At one point neither of us would have link his health issues to what we ate. But as we’ve learned more about health and food over the years, the more we’ve realized that you are what you eat. We became distinctly aware that Travis’s job helps create the very thing we wanted to avoid.

Sigh. So here I am, blogging about the importance of eating non-GMO, non-processed food created as God intended – and there Travis is, helping research and develop it.  Honestly, I felt like a hypocrite. We felt like hypocrites.

The problem: he LOVES his job. I mean really loves it. He gets to be a farmer in the spring during planting, summer field work, and fall harvesting – and in the winter he helps collect all the data they’ve gathered through the year and send it on to someone further up the ladder. He loves the variety, getting out in the fields, and man, oh, man does he love driving tractor. 🙂 He’s really just an ol’ farm boy at heart.

So what’s a farm boy and his family supposed to do with a four year degree and 15 years experience in corn research that we don’t agree with anymore? Financially there was no way he could find another job that would enable me to stay-at-home and homeschool the kids – and not doing so wasn’t an option. Okay, yes, where there’s a will, there’s a way. But honestly, he didn’t really want to do anything else. Because. . .he loves his job. . .

We felt stuck.

ID-10023760That’s when the plans God had already put in place started coming together right before our eyes. Sometimes He works in ways we don’t even recognize – but the timing of what’s taken place over the last several weeks is nothing less than Him.

I could literally write a book! I’ll try to make it a bit shorter, but there are no guarantees.

God’s Amazing Timing

In the first part of February, while Travis was in Hawaii for their winter nursery, he was told that the company he worked for was ‘restructuring’ and the research station he worked for would close at the end of March.

Fact #1 – As soon as Travis arrived back home we got busy job-hunting, resume-writing, and creating cover letters. We were knee-deep in interviews when Travis got a phone call from a company he didn’t even know was hiring. His boss had referred him – and they wanted an interview.

God’s Amazing Timing #1 – I still can’t get over this! This company develops non-GMO corn for organic farmers! Did you hear me?! I’m going to say it again just because it still amazes me – non-GMO corn for organic farmers. Travis went down for the interview and a week and a half later they offered him the job.

ID-100110273Fact #2 – We currently live about 45 min. from the church we’ve been going to for nearly fifteen years. Now when I say church I don’t just mean a brick building on the corner. I mean, Biblical-preaching with soul-searching sermons that help you discover who God is and how to glorify Him, plus friends and fellowship that are just as dear to us as family. We’ve been willing to drive the distance, but that also meant we weren’t as involved as we’d like to be.

God’s Amazing Timing #2 – The company wants Travis to set up and start a research facility for them in southern Minnesota – Any. Where. He. Wants. He suggested the town our church is located, and they gave him the green light. How cool is that! We are soooo doing the happy dance right now!

Fact #3 – As soon as we knew we were serious about the opportunity, we started looking for housing in that area. The company told us that if we found a house with a home office and machine sheds to store equipment, Travis could work from home. This would be a dream come true for us.

God’s Amazing Timing #3 – Guess how many houses are available with this exact description in that exact area? One. Yep, just one. We’re closing in nine days.

And do I even need to tell you how many more kisses I’m going to get a day!!! SQUEAL!

ID-10022398Fact #4 – Travis needs a full-time employee he can totally trust, who is strong mechanically, and has good work ethic. And as you know, that’s like trying to find a needle in a haystack anymore.

God’s Amazing Timing #4 – One of the men from our church teased, “hire me!” The funny part is, after they really started talking about it Travis realized how perfect he was for the job, and this man realized what a great opportunity it would be for him. We’re getting the paperwork done this week!

Honestly I could go on and on. . .God has been so amazing! 

So all this to say, even though I might not have shared the full truth of Travis’s job, I wasn’t trying to be deceitful. I’m glad, however, that I can share what’s been happening this last month with you – in total honesty.

The biggest lesson I’ve learned in all this is that even when the desires of our hearts aren’t spoken openly, God already knows them. His answers might be no, they might be yes, and He might make you wait fifteen years. . . 🙂 His timing is perfect – not ours.

What’s To Come

We’ve already had some changes take place. We quickly realized that our new place doesn’t have a shelter or fencing for our newest family members – the goats. Since this first year is going to be quite time consuming for Travis, I’ve decided to gracefully accept his suggestion that we sell them with the plan to start fresh in a year or so. I mean, I can be a non-helpful help-meet drinking fresh goat milk, or I can be a help-meet to a less-stressed husband. 🙂

Happily, the chicken coop we worked so hard on is portable, so if we can figure out how to get it onto a trailer without bodily harm, we’ll be moving that with us. As I’m not sure that’s possible, I haven’t packed the first aid kit yet.

And as you may have guessed, I’m going to be pretty busy. I don’t know if it’s just us or not – but we have A. Lot. Of. Stuff. I’m taking this golden opportunity to purge our house of the un-necessary, the unwanted, and frankly the things I just don’t care to dust any more. 😉

IMG_1659So while I’m debating how high the leaning tower of boxes can go, you’re going to be seeing a wide variety of guest posts and several giveaways until I get back into the swing of things. You don’t mind reading excellent content from like-minded weirdos bloggers and the chance to win great giveaways, do you? I didn’t think so.

IMG_1666Of course, you won’t be rid of me totally, this is after all, my hiding spot. The bathroom just isn’t working anymore.



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Paula, CHS, Certified Level 3 Metabolic Effect Nutrition Consultant

Paula, CHS, Certified Level 3 Metabolic Effect Nutrition Consultant

Hi, I'm Paula - wife and homeschooling mom of six. Several family health issues involving candida, food allergies, and Lyme Disease have created a passion to better understand our God-created bodies. Today I help others with recurring candida and stubborn fat learn how heal their gut and shrink their waist - in a way that's DOABLE. You can follow me on Facebook, Pinterest, and Youtube.
Paula, CHS, Certified Level 3 Metabolic Effect Nutrition Consultant
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Paula, CHS, Certified Level 3 Metabolic Effect Nutrition Consultant

Hi, I'm Paula - wife and homeschooling mom of six. Several family health issues involving candida, food allergies, and Lyme Disease have created a passion to better understand our God-created bodies. Today I help others with recurring candida and stubborn fat learn how heal their gut and shrink their waist - in a way that's DOABLE. You can follow me on Facebook, Pinterest, and Youtube.


  • Joanne

    Reply Reply March 11, 2013

    Congratulations Paula!!! I am soooooo happy for you! So often we don’t understand what we are going through, but when we keep our focus on the Lord Jesus Christ!!! All things work together to the good…

  • Sabrina

    Reply Reply March 11, 2013

    AWWW, I am sooo super happy for you. Amazing testimony. Thank you for sharing. I so needed this lift me up today!. God is far greater than we all can imagine. HAPPY MOVING!

  • Paula

    Reply Reply March 11, 2013

    Paula, this is all AMAZING news!!! How great is God, that He cares about all the details of our life, and the desires of our heart! Enjoy your new journey! 🙂

  • I love it, Paula! What an amazing story, and I’m so happy for you and your family!

  • Marci

    Reply Reply March 11, 2013

    Paula, I am so thrilled for all of you!! God is good… all the time!!!

  • Melissa

    Reply Reply March 12, 2013

    Paula, your story brought tears to my eyes. God is so good and I am so happy for you and your farm lovin’ hubby! I always love seeing your blog name in my inbox, but this has to be one of my favorite posts ever!


  • Charlotte Moore

    Reply Reply March 12, 2013

    PRAISE the LORD for HIS timing is always right. HE is an on time GOD every time. CONGRATULATIONS to all of you. When HE is in charge it is always right. Loved your story!!

  • Wow; this whole testimony is incredible! Who better to write against the the health hazards of GMO than someone with first-hand information?! I am so excited about all the Lord is doing to give you the desires of your heart. I agree with Melissa; this is one of my favorite posts ever! God bless you as you prepare for this major life change.

  • Linda

    Reply Reply March 12, 2013

    Happy for you all! Will you need a source for goat milk after the move? I know someone near by…

    • Paula

      Reply Reply March 12, 2013

      We’re lined up to get raw cow milk for the time being – but I wouldn’t mind the reference at all – thanks for thinking of us!

  • Adrienne

    Reply Reply March 12, 2013

    Wow – thanks for sharing the whole thing. Amazing. Some day I’ll have to tell you how my husband got his current job. Slightly different, but the “God” thing is pretty evident :).

  • Paula

    Reply Reply March 12, 2013

    Awww – you ladies melt my heart. Thank you for your understanding, for sharing my excitement, and your joy at what a mighty God we serve. 🙂

  • Anjanette

    Reply Reply March 12, 2013

    I am SO THANKFUL to hear the whole story. I love rejoicing with you! God is great!

  • Doug & Grace

    Reply Reply March 12, 2013

    Paula, Loved you inspiring Blog. I shed tears and had goose bumps. We are so happy for your family. God is so faithful to care for us every day in every way. Happy packing.

  • KarenL

    Reply Reply March 12, 2013

    Praise God, Paula! How absolutely wonderful to hear how He has worked out such amazingness in your lives! And you’ve shared it with us to encourage us to keep on trusting HIM, too!


  • Kate

    Reply Reply March 12, 2013

    WOW…..GREAT testimony. Love how God lines up our lives with such great clarity and direction. So well written and you had my attention all the way through. Here is a thought. How about auctioning off, here on your site, items you do not want to dust off anymore?

    • Paula

      Reply Reply March 13, 2013

      Hmm, interesting idea. . . I’ll have to think on how one would do that. 🙂

  • Paula

    Reply Reply March 12, 2013

    God Is Good, All the time. Congratulations!

  • Jen Lane

    Reply Reply March 12, 2013

    CONGRATULATIONS, Paula!!!! 😀 What amazing news!!! You’re right, God IS good, all the time. This paragraph resonated with me the most “The biggest lesson I’ve learned in all this is that even when the desires of our hearts aren’t spoken openly, God already knows them. His answers might be no, they might be yes, and He might make you wait fifteen years. . . 🙂 His timing is perfect – not ours” – to which I can add “He might make you wait 35 or even 45 years for your yes, but when He does deliver, He is oh so good!” (I waited 35 years, including a 12 yr abusive marriage, & Steve waited 45 yrs including a 26 yr abusive marriage to find each other – our soulmates, who we’d prayed for since we were children. We will be married in 55 days! God is OH SO GOOD!!!) Again, congratulations!!!! I”ve LOVED getting to know you through the facebook group!

    • Paula

      Reply Reply March 13, 2013

      Hi Jen! The days are counting down! So happy for you and Steve! Loved having you part of my Challenge Group – you did fantastic!

  • Kimberly Konkol

    Reply Reply March 13, 2013

    Hi Paula! Thank you for sharing your story. That is so amazing how God worked all of this out perfectly! I found your website searching for Candida and your title for this post got my attention. 🙂 GMOs are something I have very strong feelings about and I can see how difficult this would have been for you. I am thankful that God worked this out so perfectly for you!!! It is exciting to see how God works! We live in Minnesota too, in the central part just north of the Cities. Thank you again for sharing this!

  • Karen

    Reply Reply April 23, 2013

    I’m speechless. Makes my heart melt Paula. Thanks for sharing. How long have you been blogging…..beautiful!

    • Paula

      Reply Reply April 23, 2013

      Hi Karen,

      Thanks for your sweet words. 🙂 Blogging. . . hmmm about 5 years – with a good 2 year hiatus in there. So glad you enjoyed our latest goings ons – to God be all the glory.

  • That. Is. Awesome. !

  • chiana

    Reply Reply May 9, 2013

    I just came to your site today for the first time. It really makes me smile to see God’s faithfulness in action. I came to your site based on your gluten free flour mix. We have 2 newly diagnosed gluten-free, egg-free, casein-free boys. The challenges of transitioning from wheat are not small, but God’s timing is perfect. Thanks for the bread education.

    • Paula Miller

      Reply Reply May 9, 2013

      You’re welcome! I’m glad you found our mix. I’d love to hear what you think of it. 🙂

  • Vickie

    Reply Reply May 15, 2013

    Wow. Congratulations. Enjoy the beginning of a new part of your life!

  • toddnlaura

    Reply Reply July 8, 2013

    What an amazing God we serve! I just found your blog through another post and then saw this teaser at the top. I LOVE this story!
    I can sooo relate – my husband is a farmer who loves nothing more than being out on the tractor or combine – it’s in his blood! And he’s so good at what he does. BUT I also am realizing that we are a part of perpetuating the “problem” too. It’s something I struggle with in my own heart. I would love to see God provide an alternative that would still fill my husband’s “need” to be on a tractor seat! 😉
    Though I don’t know you, I am rejoicing with you to see how God worked in your lives. It encourages me! Thank you for sharing your story.

    • Paula Miller

      Reply Reply July 8, 2013

      Hi Laura,

      Thank you so much for taking the time to comment. The reminder that stills my heart is remembering that God *knows* the desires of our hearts. It’s not always easy to wait on Him though, is it!

      Sometimes though, He works in ways that we could never have come up with ourselves. It leaves us speechless and in awe of Him. Personally, I think He likes doing that. 😉

  • This is SO wonderful! I am praising God with you!!!

  • Congrats! I so love hearing how God provides. Thank you for sharing 🙂

  • Paula

    Reply Reply March 25, 2014

    Hello Paula!
    This is the first time I’ve been to your site, the first post of yours I’ve read. God spoke to me through you today, and I just wanted to thank you. Thank you for the reminder that our loving, sovereign Lord knows our needs, and is more than able to meet them…His way, in His timing, beyond our dreams.
    His joy to you!

    • Paula

      Reply Reply March 27, 2014

      Hi Paula,

      I’m so glad you found us here! Thank you for your kind words.

      Every time I go back to read about how God orchestrated our lives, I get goosebumps. I think we learn to appreciate his sovereignty more when we’re reminded how totally helpless we really are. 🙂

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